it’s confusing because i see some of the most heartwrenchingly beautiful/sexy/stylish spanish men and my reptile mind knows it would be easy to fuck them and maybe i’m just horny enough to do so (i mean, hell, i’ve locked myself in my bathroom to masturbate), but i try to imagine the dynamics of said sexual/romantic relationships and maybe it’s because i’ve distanced my mind so much from the possibility of being sexually/romantically intimate with a cis guy but i can’t imagine it. i want to want them if only just for access to casual sex, however. it’s all very confusing but i’ve paused my vegetarianism for my time here, is it possible for me to drop my strong queer leanings for the sake of more easily getting laid?